May 2012
27 posts
April 2012
45 posts
“You don’t understand
-Cutting, unless you’re a cutter.
-Drugs, unless you’re a...”
– (via why-must-life-be-so-hard)
you you you.
You were the worst mistake I ever made. I ignored everything and everyone that was important to me, so I could make you happy. I put you above everything else. But now you’re gone, and I realize that I could not have been stupider. If I could change one thing, it would be that I never fell in love with you. I would not have made all of the stupid decisions that did. I regret so much. And it...
Someone.
I hate it when you feel completely and utterly alone. Yes, I understand there are millions of people that surround me, but I am still alone. In a world that is so large, how can one not have anyone that is there for them? Yes, I have my friends, and my “family”, and the people who constantly remind me that they are here for me. But I don’t want them to be here for me.
When a...
Listen
Counting all different ideas drifting away
Past...
trapped pretender
As if I am locked in my own mind
I cannot escape.
I don’t want to hate what I see when I look in the mirror
Nor do I want to pretend to be happy when I know I’m not.
But happiness must be that of an extremely abstract and unachievable goal.
Longing to be happy or to like who I am
If it were possible for me, I would try
But it isn’t.
It won’t ever be.
Why try?
I...
Great day.
So my mom has decided that she is sick of me and is kicking me out of the house. Not only is she kicking me out, but she is also “cutting me off.” Not that I nor my family are wealthy or greatly depend on money, but as a teenager, what am I supposed to do? I don’t have my permit, therefore I can’t drive, thus I can’t get a job, and in return, cannot make money. So now...
Leaving here.
I’m going insane in this house. All I hear is fighting. All I feel is torn apart. I have no one to turn to and no one to talk to.. Bring on the boarding schools, biiitcheesss! Ella’s movin’ out!
Broken.
You were supposed to be here for me. You weren’t supposed to walk away, leaving me alone. It wasn’t supposed to happen like this and I regret every bit of it. Broken heart because of broken promises.
